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♫ ♬ ♪ ☆*•◕ .¸¸.·´╔bIaNBiAn╝¯`·.¸¸.★ o *◕ ♫ ♬ ♪new yr goal: HAVE to quit snacking as a habit and lose 10kgs!!!!! August 21 ChangeEverything just changed as of today. Everything I had planned doing since beginning of year is now no use anymore, at least for now. I'm just so much in shock. I wanted to make my decision over the weekend, but under circumstances really had to give an answer today. Half of me is happy and half of me is not. I was going to make a list of pros and cons …. Let's see, Positives
Negatives
I guess …… that pros = cons atm I don't know …. I'm still quite out of it I guess, after all I just came back from tw and I'm still adjusting. My plan was to go out of akl – either to hamilton/welly/tauranga. I guess my first choice would've been Hamilton since is close to akl. And … I started thinking just a few days ago, if I really couldn't find a job, I was going to go back 2 tw for a long holiday. Was even thinking of getting a part time job while studying to get registration in tw ……. Aiy, I guess I just don't like the feeling of not having things happen as I've planned it. I think this is another turning point for me, and I don't know if I have made the right decision. Last turning point for me was deciding wat 2 study in uni, and I think I did make a right choice. I hope I made the right choice this time. June 20 So many things going on ….There are so many things going on this yr … I am so tired. Last yr, it was just study study dissertation study study dissertation …… no time to think abt anything else at all. I think during the 4 uni yrs, I just lost track/ ignored my emotions cos its just busy This year, there is a lot more free time. So I am thinking about things more often … n I feel quite lost, cos I haven't felt this way for ages. Ai … I am so confused. I am so tired. I, just want to be by myself really. I really mean it. December 19 T.Ti just saw my blog title and it said ...
new yr goal: have to quite snacking as a habit and lose 10kgs ...
i dunno wat to say ...
i so did not achieve my goal T.T
and i think it actually got worse ...
*cries and runs away* November 03 4 years from 2005yikes!
i think my blog is growing mould already!!!!
im so excited that my last exam is on thursday! .... yay! but im dreading to move everything back home and tidying my WHOLE room up =.=
i bought a sewing machine the other day! im so excited ... i want to learn how to make clothes :D
but the last time i used a sewing machine was in intermediate, and i was REALLY bad at it ... :/ i think i need to ask my mum to teach me haha
exams came back so quickly that i didnt get to enjoy the last week EVER of uni :( everyone was in a busy, stressed and unhappy mood .... should've took more photos :(
anyways this year's been ..... well both good and bad .... but i think i am more organised this year .... and didnt leave things to the last minute like last year :P
so 4 years of uni has passed ... i think i've changed a lot and i think i'm more mature (hopefully????!!! - ok my friends at uni r probably going 2 deny this haha)
i think looking back 2 when i was chosing which course to do ... i think i made the right choice .... although i did consider med, im glad i chose pharmacy in the end ... cos i think 6 years is just too long for me, and i dun think i'd like working long hours and having no free time to do what i like
i made my choice according to wat i would like doing as a job, not what i'd like to study ... and also a job that's 'realistc' ....
i think, if i didnt hav 2 worry about money n the future ... i would've chose wat i'd like to study the most .... which is music performance and chemistry ....
i still miss music .... the performing and all that .... so sad that i've lost my piano skills ....
but i like pharmacy as a job, i really like it ... but since im always so 三分鐘熱度 i dunno how long it'll last haha
but i still have lots of other things i'd like to do :)
anyways im just writing all this cos im bored and procrastinating since joh hasn't come back with the dokepon game :( lol June 20 why?just read my post on august 27 2007
i said that i really enjoy working and i think i chose the right course
but y do i not think that now?
June 19 i want to learn other things!havnt come here for a while now ....
watched sex and the city today - its so good! i think its a movie that teaches/makes u realise many things u dun usually think abt/realise
got our osce marks today .. i dun think i did well .... but then again i duno how they marked it ...
sometimes i just wonder ... what am i doing with my life? why do i care SO much about things like my marks? honestly, i think im getting too obssessed with my marks ... and i dun like it
i wont to do other things other than studying pharmacy
i really really really want to get this over and done with and start doing other things i like
im not saying i dun like pharmacy - i like it, but its just getting too much
i cant take too many of one thing at once ... like, studying everyday about pharmacy its honestly making me nuts
i dun hav time to do things i like - and i dun hav time to learn other things
i dun hav time for piano, i dun hav time to bake, i dun hav time to make paper tole and crafts, i dun hav time to paint
and i dun hav time to learn so many things .... and i realised that what i like doing and want to learn are all art-related stuff ...
but then i suppose, if i did do what i said above as a job i dun think i'll like it ... but i want to learn learn learn!
i sooooooooo want to learn more about make up and especially designing and making clothes!
and baking courses!
i just hope i get to accomplish all these things i want to learn - cos life is too short to do everything ...
anyways .... too much complaining ... but its all getting too much and i somehow think im wasting my time ... o well, just 1.5 years to go until its over ... add oil!!!!!!
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